Desoxydrol cycle done.. libido is shot

Trank406 · 08-27-2008, 10:48 PM

In day 3 of PCT and I feel like shit. I can't eat! I've only had a peanut butter sandwich and I had to force it down. I can't sleep. I'm losing weight drastically and I'm down on myself because I can't get it up. I have suicidal thoughts and I have an appointment at 9 in the morning tomorrow with my doctor. I think he's going to subscribe me some anti-depressants but I don't know what I can do to help with the eating and getting my libido back.

I'm taking 1 Hyperdrol X2 and 1 Hypertest. I have 1 bottle of each so I was thinking 1, 2, 2, 1 even though the cycle of Desoxydrol was for 6 weeks I only think I have enough for a 4 week PCT.

I was doing 40mgs of the Desoxydrol ( Phera clone ) and it was my first cycle ever. Any suggestions will do.. I'm on the verge of killing myself though.. because I can't do this anymore. I've never been depressed before so I'm freaking out.

GQ-Nemesis · 08-27-2008, 11:16 PM

damn dude .. 1st cycle and u chose phera and top of it you did 40mg ..not a wise choice.

real sorry to hear about the depression and all .. i really dont know what to suggest ..all i can do is hope everything works out for u bro ..let the doc know about the appetite and all.

Also how much did you gain in your cycle ?
And what is included in your PCT ?

It's always a good idea to start taking ATD during the last week(3days before).

Once again .. Good luck man

**meksi** · 08-27-2008, 11:23 PM

Keep ya head up, kid....I am not much of a motivation speaker here but know this.... no matter how bad you think it is, there some sucker out there that has it 10x worse! This aint a thing.....

For a first cycle, you may have gone a bit high on the phera. Your body will take its time getting back to homeostasis. Unfortunately, that's what you will have to have....patience and give it time to heal/normalize itself.

If anything go watch Fight Club, sounded like you were fan. Dont go starting your own club tonight tho...you may just spoil somebodys day....

Keep ya chin up

Trank406 · 08-27-2008, 11:32 PM

gained 15 pounds. I was digesting 5000 cals and now I'm digesting 500 if that bro. I'm going to tell the doctor everything because I've never felt like this before ever! I'd rather have a Meth withdrawal bro.. anything but this! And I've done my share of drugs.. and nothing's come close to this! I know I chose a strong first cycle but I didn't know I was going to pay for it because I felt fine while I was on! I guess you live and learn man and there's nothing else I can do but try and solve this asap. I have a feeling that my girlfriend of 5 years is going to leave me. She was against me doing a cycle but I hate it when she's right. And it's my fault for not being responsible. Anyways I have Hypertest and Hyperdrol X2 and I'm doing 1, 2, 2 ,1 enough for a 4 week cycle. I also have Nolvadex on hand but my body is already shutting down. No sex drive, appetite loss, depression.. my bod is swimming in a pool of estrogen and I friggin' need help man!

Trank406 · 08-27-2008, 11:40 PM

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Originally Posted by meksi

Keep ya head up, kid....I am not much of a motivation speaker here but know this.... no matter how bad you think it is, there some sucker out there that has it 10x worse! This aint a thing.....

For a first cycle, you may have gone a bit high on the phera. Your body will take its time getting back to homeostasis. Unfortunately, that's what you will have to have....patience and give it time to heal/normalize itself.

If anything go watch Fight Club, sounded like you were fan. Dont go starting your own club tonight tho...you may just spoil somebodys day....

Keep ya chin up

I'll try bro. I hope the doctor prescribes me something for my libido. I hope the Hypertest kicks in man or the Hyperdrol! I need sex bro lol 8 inches gone to waste! (( Sorry TMI ))

Seriously though man.. I'm only 22 and I've never had this sort of scare! I feel weird man. As for the Fight Club! Yeah still one of my all time favorite movies. But I gotta keep myself in control man because if I get into a fight with someone I will fucking kill them! Especially with the way I feel right now bro I just gotta settle down and try not to stress out as much

GQ-Nemesis · 08-27-2008, 11:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Trank406

gained 15 pounds. I was digesting 5000 cals and now I'm digesting 500 if that bro. I'm going to tell the doctor everything because I've never felt like this before ever! I'd rather have a Meth withdrawal bro.. anything but this! And I've done my share of drugs.. and nothing's come close to this! I know I chose a strong first cycle but I didn't know I was going to pay for it because I felt fine while I was on! I guess you live and learn man and there's nothing else I can do but try and solve this asap. I have a feeling that my girlfriend of 5 years is going to leave me. She was against me doing a cycle but I hate it when she's right. And it's my fault for not being responsible. Anyways I have Hypertest and Hyperdrol X2 and I'm doing 1, 2, 2 ,1 enough for a 4 week cycle. I also have Nolvadex on hand but my body is already shutting down. No sex drive, appetite loss, depression.. my bod is swimming in a pool of estrogen and I friggin' need help man!

oh its all good bro .. like you said, you live and learn man .. you're going to be back on track ..its just a matter of time .. so dont sweat it too much, like meksi said ...keep ya head up.. ull be back up running in no time. I've seen loads of logs that goes through what your going thru or even worst .. and they have recovered fine from it ..like i said, just takes time.

good luck .. report back 2mmorow what the doc suggests

**meksi** · 11:50 PM

Do tell the doc everything!! He wont be able to help you unless you do that. I am sure you know, he will scold you and tell you that you shouldnt have done this and that. There was nothing wrong with doing the cycle, you just went a bit overboard with it. haha...yeah, unfortunately, we tend to go our own ways sometime and we gotta rough it in the end...live and learn...my grandma used to say "golpes propios son buenos"....basically the same thing. Right now, you have to battle the mind and force your body to consume them cals.

How about some Titanic or Clueless....that may mellow you out some. Or go with a classick....DUMB and DUMBER!!!

**Supa-T** · 08-28-2008, 12:07 AM

I'm feeling bad for you brother, so I'll give you this:
When you are depressed due to hormonal imbalance the best thing is sleep. Get on the Nolva-NOW!! (30/20/20/10) Step up the HDx2 and run it three weeks and then run the Hypertest following. Read my sig, that's where I go when I need reset my thinking. There are a lot of things in this world to depressed about, the answer for every one of those is in that book.
Keep us updated bro, know that it will get better.

**Gixxer82** · 12:26 AM

this thread is hilarious...

what do you expect? You go and shut yourself down with a cycle then you run the shittiest PCT in the world. You could've spared yourself all the drama with better research.

on to the next issue: Pick your fucking head up and move on. Force down food if you have to, don't sit there and wallow in your own self pity because its getting you no where. Get your damn self under control you're 22 years old. You are in panic-mode over something YOU have control over, so educate yourself and fix the problem.

^^meant to be motivational.

mad dog · 08-28-2008, 02:30 AM

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Originally Posted by Supa-T

I'm feeling bad for you brother, so I'll give you this:
When you are depressed due to hormonal imbalance the best thing is sleep. Get on the Nolva-NOW!! (30/20/20/10) Step up the HDx2 and run it three weeks and then run the Hypertest following. Read my sig, that's where I go when I need reset my thinking. There are a lot of things in this world to depressed about, the answer for every one of those is in that book.
Keep us updated bro, know that it will get better.

Follow the abv start the nolva now and if possilble pick up and start taking clomid.